control?
i panic, both metaphorically and literally when mics doesn't work.. when fire burns the steak.. when the car skids(ok this one should panic).. but yea, i panic when i can't seem to be in control of things.. when things turn out different from wat i expected..
my housemate once used an analogy of a driver.. who sits at the driver seat, and is in control of the whole vehicle.. we tend to steer away whenever we feel like there's anything of danger heading towards our direction.. be it a vehicle or a bumpy road.. but there are times when we just have to let go of the steering wheel and sit at the passenger seat.. having that faith tat someone else or God would be capable of taking charge of the wheel.. and sit back to have a better view of things, and not just having to focus on the road ahead..
i don't want to be in control.. it can be so tiring.. to be holding onto the steering wheel 24 hours a day.. don't want to be in control...